1 00:00:48,483 --> 00:00:52,634 Look at this, Stella, someone sent us their lunch. 2 00:00:54,073 --> 00:00:55,076 Not your lunch. 3 00:01:00,030 --> 00:01:02,305 Dear Red Shoes, wanna stop 4 00:01:02,306 --> 00:01:03,644 feelin' sorry for yourself? 5 00:01:05,485 --> 00:01:07,057 Yeah. 6 00:01:07,058 --> 00:01:09,969 You should take a leaf from my grandmother's book. 7 00:01:09,970 --> 00:01:11,342 We got a letter from her at Christmas 8 00:01:11,343 --> 00:01:13,784 saying she missed us desperately. 9 00:01:13,785 --> 00:01:16,027 The next thing I knew I was taking a leave of absence 10 00:01:16,028 --> 00:01:18,705 from work and I was on a plane to Rio. 11 00:01:26,101 --> 00:01:27,808 The last few years of my life 12 00:01:27,809 --> 00:01:29,616 had been completely regimented. 13 00:01:30,888 --> 00:01:35,708 Work, school, work, work. 14 00:01:38,452 --> 00:01:40,024 On the way to see my grandmother 15 00:01:41,029 --> 00:01:42,501 I did something I hadn't done. 16 00:01:44,977 --> 00:01:46,082 I wrote in my diary. 17 00:01:47,321 --> 00:01:49,262 Just let my mind drift. 18 00:01:52,174 --> 00:01:55,052 It'd been so long since I fantasized about anything. 19 00:01:57,261 --> 00:02:00,574 Thoughts of endless nights. 20 00:02:02,717 --> 00:02:03,754 Thoughts of men. 21 00:02:06,363 --> 00:02:07,402 Thoughts of a man. 22 00:02:09,878 --> 00:02:10,881 A stranger. 23 00:02:29,893 --> 00:02:31,700 Thoughts of surrender. 24 00:02:34,143 --> 00:02:35,215 Thoughts of abandon. 25 00:02:37,656 --> 00:02:41,004 Of a night of complete and utter abandon. 26 00:02:55,228 --> 00:02:57,671 Any apprehensions I had about actually taking 27 00:02:57,672 --> 00:03:00,348 a little time off for myself were completely 28 00:03:00,349 --> 00:03:03,060 dispelled the moment I saw my grandmother. 29 00:03:04,733 --> 00:03:08,246 My grandmother with her heart full 30 00:03:08,247 --> 00:03:10,489 of love and her beautiful smile. 31 00:03:14,606 --> 00:03:16,749 To her, every day was a miracle. 32 00:03:18,021 --> 00:03:20,229 80 going on 35. 33 00:03:21,634 --> 00:03:23,308 So filled with spirit. 34 00:03:24,179 --> 00:03:25,819 I couldn't get enough of her. 35 00:04:24,857 --> 00:04:27,299 On New Year's Eve she insisted that we take her 36 00:04:27,300 --> 00:04:29,407 to the beach to join the rest of Brazil 37 00:04:29,408 --> 00:04:32,553 making their annual offering to Iemanja, 38 00:04:32,554 --> 00:04:33,826 the goddess of the sea. 39 00:04:44,234 --> 00:04:46,041 When my grandmother realized I hadn't brought 40 00:04:46,042 --> 00:04:50,358 an offering for Iemania, she commandeered my purse. 41 00:04:50,359 --> 00:04:52,667 Finding nothing appropriate in it, 42 00:04:52,668 --> 00:04:54,173 she ripped out a few of the pages 43 00:04:54,174 --> 00:04:56,986 from my diary and sealed them in a plastic bag. 44 00:04:57,957 --> 00:05:00,466 I protested, but it did no good. 45 00:05:00,467 --> 00:05:02,507 "A diary" she shouted. 46 00:05:02,508 --> 00:05:05,386 "It's a New Year, you don't need it anymore. 47 00:05:05,387 --> 00:05:07,931 "What better to give Iemanja than your secrets? 48 00:05:09,135 --> 00:05:10,942 "Give Iemanja your secret" she said. 49 00:05:10,943 --> 00:05:13,887 "And if she sees fit all your dreams will come true." 50 00:05:39,792 --> 00:05:42,669 They say if Iemanja keeps your offering, 51 00:05:42,670 --> 00:05:45,783 if it drifts out to sea, your dreams will come true. 52 00:05:47,055 --> 00:05:48,762 But if it returns to the shore, 53 00:05:49,899 --> 00:05:51,774 you're in for a whole year of bad luck. 54 00:06:29,861 --> 00:06:31,299 If my grandmother only knew 55 00:06:31,300 --> 00:06:33,777 the secret she had offered to Iemania. 56 00:06:39,467 --> 00:06:43,985 If she only knew. 57 00:09:18,475 --> 00:09:21,052 Anyway to make a long story short, 58 00:09:22,056 --> 00:09:26,004 come the end of February, Lent, 59 00:09:26,005 --> 00:09:28,716 the full moon, the beginning of Carnival. 60 00:09:30,021 --> 00:09:34,306 Yep, you guessed it, I was still in Rio. 61 00:10:23,001 --> 00:10:24,240 - I found it! 62 00:10:25,312 --> 00:10:27,419 I found my costume. 63 00:10:27,420 --> 00:10:29,227 My carnival costume. 64 00:10:33,645 --> 00:10:34,647 Come. 65 00:10:37,360 --> 00:10:39,736 You are really like a flower. 66 00:10:41,878 --> 00:10:44,521 Your lips are the shape of mine. 67 00:10:47,501 --> 00:10:52,487 You have my skin, my breasts, my stomach. 68 00:10:54,965 --> 00:10:59,951 And beneath them just under the surface you have my spirit. 69 00:11:09,054 --> 00:11:10,058 Here. 70 00:11:11,498 --> 00:11:14,678 Tonight you are going to dance Carnival. 71 00:14:38,500 --> 00:14:39,737 - Are you okay? 72 00:15:05,074 --> 00:15:06,076 Iemania? 73 00:15:06,948 --> 00:15:09,156 I don't understand. 74 00:15:23,548 --> 00:15:25,655 Can anyone help me, please? 75 00:15:25,656 --> 00:15:27,430 Can anyone speak English here? 76 00:15:28,635 --> 00:15:31,179 I don't understand what you're saying, Iemanja. 77 00:15:31,180 --> 00:15:33,889 Iemanja I don't understand. 78 00:15:35,396 --> 00:15:36,767 Somebody, please. 79 00:15:36,768 --> 00:15:38,975 Does somebody speak English? 80 00:15:38,976 --> 00:15:40,482 - Yes? 81 00:15:40,483 --> 00:15:42,088 Yes, I speak English. 82 00:15:42,089 --> 00:15:43,127 - Yes. - Can I help you? 83 00:15:43,128 --> 00:15:45,435 - Yes, I don't speak Portuguese. 84 00:15:45,436 --> 00:15:47,880 Can you ask him what, he's trying to say? 85 00:16:00,765 --> 00:16:02,304 - He says he's sorry, 86 00:16:02,305 --> 00:16:06,321 but he can't give you what Iemanja asked him to give you. 87 00:16:13,550 --> 00:16:16,996 He says Iemanja told him what you want, 88 00:16:16,997 --> 00:16:19,340 but he says, he can't do it. 89 00:16:26,736 --> 00:16:29,982 He says he can't believe what his friend 90 00:16:29,983 --> 00:16:33,363 translated from the words you wrote. 91 00:16:38,852 --> 00:16:40,057 - Where did you find it? 92 00:16:50,833 --> 00:16:55,384 - He said too much Iemania, that you're too beautiful. 93 00:16:55,385 --> 00:16:56,624 - That's bullshit! 94 00:16:57,493 --> 00:17:00,305 Ask him where he found my diary. 95 00:17:12,654 --> 00:17:14,596 - He says you're too beautiful 96 00:17:14,597 --> 00:17:18,546 and he's ashamed to do what you want. 97 00:17:31,331 --> 00:17:33,907 He says for him slow is better. 98 00:17:35,146 --> 00:17:37,690 To kiss your thigh is better. 99 00:17:38,861 --> 00:17:40,567 To kiss the back of your neck. 100 00:17:47,797 --> 00:17:49,872 Abandon comes slowly. 101 00:17:51,178 --> 00:17:53,319 Women need time to lose control. 102 00:18:10,689 --> 00:18:15,710 He says if something is in your head and you write it down 103 00:18:17,116 --> 00:18:19,322 then you want it, even if you're not sure, you want it. 104 00:18:32,377 --> 00:18:33,916 He says, look around. 105 00:18:33,917 --> 00:18:38,266 He says Carnival is a way to let your fantasies free 106 00:18:39,740 --> 00:18:41,445 and Carnival is an excuse for people 107 00:18:41,446 --> 00:18:43,622 to do what they're not supposed to do. 108 00:26:55,808 --> 00:26:57,114 How could I ever explain 109 00:26:57,115 --> 00:26:58,720 what happened to my grandmother? 110 00:27:00,327 --> 00:27:02,200 He'd been swimming and seen my offering 111 00:27:02,201 --> 00:27:03,841 laying on the floor of the ocean? 112 00:27:22,148 --> 00:27:26,699 I should have known I wouldn't have to explain. 113 00:27:26,700 --> 00:27:30,313 The moment my grandmother saw me, I could see in her eyes 114 00:27:30,314 --> 00:27:32,322 that she knew exactly what had happened. 115 00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:54,310 - I saw your ad while I was back in L.A., 116 00:27:54,311 --> 00:27:57,054 packing to move permanently to Brazil. 117 00:27:57,055 --> 00:27:58,594 I thought that it might help you make sense 118 00:27:58,595 --> 00:28:01,172 out of whatever you're trying to make sense out of. 119 00:28:02,611 --> 00:28:06,260 What I'm trying to say is there is such a thing as magic. 120 00:28:09,071 --> 00:28:11,581 What do you think of that? 121 00:28:13,388 --> 00:28:14,391 Come on.